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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 13:02

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She wouldn,t have been !

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And i lived it daily.

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I couldn’t, believe it.

Would this be the day?

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But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He knew the spot.

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But ive been too sick for many years..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

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As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Put me off passion for life!!

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But it wasn’t much.

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

I could never make a relationship work though!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Why is my ex still keeping in touch with me even though she dumped me?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

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I of course replied” arh beautiful!

One cannot live in the past .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

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For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

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This is soul school!.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

(And it was in our own minds.)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Comes on , in middle age.

I waited trembling.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

So whats the point in blame.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I was 9 years of age.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

We all went to grammer schools

I was scared of men, in general

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My family never makes their pension either.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

When she asked me how she looked .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

So, i spoilt her more .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She loved him until the end.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

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My life is so biszare .

I think the readers, may guess!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I have no regrets .

She was in good health!

I will be 64.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Was to survive, this bastard.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

We were not on the streets..

He resisted the act ,that day.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Im still living with it.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I write beautiful poetry .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I said to her

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

All the time i was locked up.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

It was going to be , some day.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Who then, do I blame.?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

As i do to all so called friends.?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I was very sick at this time too.

Especially a lifetime of it.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I don,t even have a pension.

I was seconnd youngest,

She found it foreign!.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

What did i know ?

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She married twice! .

Ive learnt so much.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I never cut or harmed myself..

But, we were locked up after school.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Why did i forgive my father ?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!