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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 23.06.2025 11:43

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Have you ever lied to your family? What were the circumstances?

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I waited trembling.

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He knew the spot.

Ive learnt so much.

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Why do we still feel attached or jealous when a covert narcissist moves on, even after realizing their toxicity and the suffering they caused?

This is soul school!.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She wouldn,t have been !

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

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Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Why did i forgive my father ?

But, we were locked up after school.

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You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I don,t even have a pension.

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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I could never make a relationship work though!

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Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He resisted the act ,that day.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I was very sick at this time too.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She was in good health!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Especially a lifetime of it.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I have no regrets .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

So whats the point in blame.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Would this be the day?

Put me off passion for life!!

Was to survive, this bastard.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

My family never makes their pension either.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She found it foreign!.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

One cannot live in the past .

Im still living with it.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I was 9 years of age.

So, i spoilt her more .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But it wasn’t much.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

As i do to all so called friends.?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I write beautiful poetry .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She loved him until the end.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

It was going to be , some day.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I was scared of men, in general

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I was seconnd youngest,

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She married twice! .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

All the time i was locked up.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I never cut or harmed myself..

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I said to her

We were not on the streets..

We all went to grammer schools

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

What did i know ?

(And it was in our own minds.)

I couldn’t, believe it.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I will be 64.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I think the readers, may guess!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And i lived it daily.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Comes on , in middle age.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But ive been too sick for many years..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

My life is so biszare .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

When she asked me how she looked .

Who then, do I blame.?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!